This post is not related directly to any of my goals. It’s just been a struggle today to stay true to my plan. My motivation to achieve success is at an all time low for this past 90 days. These are the days I believe that can make or break overall success for someone and their goals. I find it to help to write down my thoughts and fears. This way, I can put them aside and concentrate on what I need to accomplish.
As I continue writing this, I can actually feel the release of my fears and struggles. What if I break down and have a drink one day? What if I start to fail in my business? Have I maxed out on my potential or do I have more in me? My answer to these is, I won’t fail!! I’m pushing through and know I’ll feel the effects of it down the road.
So if you are having a tough day, remember concentrate on getting the most out of that day. That day, is the most important day to drive through.
Like I mentioned in my first post, I’ve recently started getting healthy. What I have found is balance not only in my life but balance in what I do to be healthy is most important. Here is what I’ve been doing to get healthy.
- Lifting weights 3x a week
- Doing elliptical 3x a week
- Running 4x a week
- I’ve been counting my calories as well and found that around 2,000 calories for my activity allows me not to be hungry and loose weight
Now, with all my workouts I switch up my speeds and weight to continue making it interesting and fun.
My results so far following this plan has given me more energy, I’m happier, I feel better and I don’t fit in pretty much all my clothes now.
When I started this almost 90 days ago I weighed 220. I now weigh 188. To me, it’s not really even about the weight. It’s how I look. I’ve almost lost my belly completely and see the signs of my six pack coming through.
What I didn’t realize is my confidence as a person and in what I wear has changed dramatically. I now believe I deserve respect and believe that I’m Someone who deserves to be happy and will stop at nothing to continue my journey.
It’s amazing how you can start one task/goal and it can lead to helping you with other areas of your life. I now understand all these areas I’m progressing on go together hand and hand.
Recovery, what does that really to me. I don’t have less of an urge to drink. I still pass certain things on the road that give me the desire to drink.
So, recovery means, to me, power, focus and desire to want a better life. Knowing the effects of alcohol will lead to being a shell of yourself and never living up to your full potential.
I want to make a better life for myself and my family. I want nothing more to see their smiling faces as I reach my next goal for my family. I want to be “present” with them when I’m home so I don’t miss the special moments of our lives together.
To recap, recovery is the desire and will to be the best you can be every day all day. Now, for various reasons you might not be that you all the time, but you have the ability unlike before when you were drunk.
I’m determined to have a great life and I know I can deliver every last dream my family might have.
Understanding the true meaning of love can be very difficult. Being an alcoholic I believe I never stopped to truly appreciate what love I had in my life. It’s important to not dwell on your mistakes in the past. But, learn from them and ensure your actions will be different in the future.
Back to what I believe love is now being a more sound of mind person, I believe it’s putting someone in front all other things in your life. Making them believe they are the person you see when you look st them. Giving them the support and help even when your feelings might be hurt. Trusting that they love you back and letting them explore areas of their life that you might not fully agree with.
Love is hard work. It’s constantly changing everyday on what the right answer is on how to show your true love for someone.
I’ll end this by saying I’m not an expert at love but I’m embracing the challenge of learning how to show my love to my loved ones better. Because at the end of the day, all that matters is the happiness of the ones you love.
I figured I should start my story at the beginning. I’m a 35 year married man with a 3 year old daughter.
Around 3 months ago, I came to a crossroads in life. I’m not ready to disclose all the details yet but here is what I will say. I believe all people have a moment in their life that they can either give up or decide to fight. Fight for the life they want or believe they deserve. Seek the happiness of their inner self that they always knew wasn’t there but didn’t have the courage to admit or face.
I’m proud to admit I’m a recovering alcoholic that has found there is more to life then a drink or instant gratification. I’m only 83 days in so I know I have a long way to go and I will have a lot of boulders that will get in my way. But, for the first time I’m confident to say I look forward to the challenge. I know I can handle it and believe the character you build during the dark times will get you through.
So the point of my blog, the point is to document and show my progress in my life goals. I outlined them 83 days ago when I started AA. They are as follows:
1)Follow my AA program (the rest of my goals i can’t achieve I have discovered if I do drink)
2)Get myself healthy and develop a healthy lifestyle
-When I started 83 days ago, I weighed 220 well overweight. I’m happy to report I weigh 189 today. My goal is to get down to 170 and know I can do it
3)Find inner self happiness. This includes developing true friendships and confidence in myself to strive for my dreams
4)Stop talking about making changes in my life show my wife the changes. Be a man and show her the life I’ve always dreamed of us having. (I placed this one at #4 not that it’s not important, but because I know I can’t achieve it unless I achieve 1-3.)
So I will end my first post with this, I’m a different person then I was 83 days ago, but know I need to stay the course. I’ve already been humbled along this short journey that has kept me on point. I plan on sharing more about my life and challenges along the way. Not to boast or for a pity party but in the hope that someone might learn from my mistakes. Or take a little from my experience to help them with their life.