I use to look at gratitude a lot different before I came to AA. I’ve always been grateful for my family friends wife daughter the usual. But, never showed it. I didn’t show them how much I care. I didn’t take the time to make them feel the love and happiness they give me. Two examples, one involving my ex-wife and one my daughter.
With my ex-wife I just sent her a message saying I’m truly grateful for her and raising our daughter together. I meant it. I really did. I didn’t do it anymore then just to let her know that’s all and it felt good.
My daughter. I was exhausted today I started work at 5 today and it was non stop all day. But, when I picked her up. I stayed in the moment. Of course we had to play a game where a bear was chasing us. Of course that involved me fitting in small tunnels at the playground that I was really having a hard time doing because I’m sore from working out. But, it was all worth it. There is nothing I want more then to be in pain doing that with her.
I’d say I’m beginning to truly understand this program. Never will fully understand but I will always progress and learn more as I go.