Today I feel like I have a million things running through my mind. Usually I am able to make lists or categorize things so that I don’t have issues. But, today no matter what I do I can’t shake them. I’m trying to start my new life of my wants and needs. The past always seems to challenge that goal or notion. The what could’ve been or reminders of certain memories make it hard for me to stay on point. The sadness of not being important or loved like I was hurts and makes me feel empty and alone.
What I keep telling myself is I’m blessed to have the people I do in my life. I’m blessed to be able to pick up the pieces and start a wonderful life from where I am. Nothing I have in front of me is not doable or achievable. I will be truly happy and have the life I have always dreamed of as I work towards these goals of mine. I will push through and find my new normal and understand that the love I receive will come natural to them not forced. I’m not a patient person that’s my biggest problem. All of these things I mention above will come but I have to not force them just let them come.