It’s been a while since I posted a blog post. Partly because I’ve been working on getting through things and partly I’ve been very busy. I’m not proud of how I handled a lot of what’s been going on in the past two weeks or so. I could’ve done a lot of things differently. I will not dwell on it as it will only make it worse.
I can report though, I’m finally seeing the light. I’m finally having the confidence in God to handle my life’s plan. I no longer will try to take control. I will focus my energy on becoming a better person and helping others find their strength. I have a lot to offer people and I’m excited to offer it.
I had the honor of performing the lead the last two nights at AA. What I discovered is the peace and clarity I received from the comments from each group after my lead. I found my strength in pushing forward in those rooms. I was destined to have this experience. Now I plan to run with it and take full advantage.
I recently had some unfortunate events occur in my family life where things were said that were meant to be secret for a little longer. It forced me to face my struggles and promptly admit them to the ones I love the most. The outpouring response I received back left me speechless. The sincerity of comments was breathtaking. I learned how therapeutic it can be. I received so much strength and perspective that I didn’t expect. It was just another example of how God shows his love through us to each other.
To all that I have been through lately, I’m truly grateful now. I’m no longer bitter or angry or regretful. I’m thankful and optimistic. Life is what you make of it. I plan on following God’s lead as I’m confident it will take me in the right direction.